my greatest fears

no place to run.
no place to hide.
where can I turn to?

what hurts the most?

when you, yourself have no idea of what is happening.

I try to hide.
I try to run.
is there no other way out?

do I have to be like this?

does anyone know, how it feels like,
when all of a sudden,
you experience a drastic change.

even you yourself,
have no possibility to accept it.

I need help.
I really need.

but no one is there for me,
I have no right to blame that no one is coming to help me out of this,
because, it is I, who couldn't let anyone know.

Not even myself.

I don't want to know the truth.
for, I chose, not to accept it,
even if I knew it is coming.

would anyone still love me,
even if i am not the same Julia anymore.