hate!

I am sweating.
My lips is swollen.
I can't sleep.
I can't freak'in do my assignments.
I hate it.

I guess it is a crime being too nice.
It is a huge huge crime.

bli bli bla bla.
Something rather not so good happened to me this afternoon.
And I hate to tell it again.

My mama keeps telling me that it is nothing.

But I feel stupid.
Really very stupid.

Decent looking people are born with cruel ugly retarded brains.

This is the first time I have experience such fears.
My peace for 18 years 10 months 3 weeks is ruined and disturbed by some stupid retarded man.

I keep forcing myself to remember the Pakistanis face, but the only thing that comes into my mind is the good looking young Indian ssh lecturer's face.

so the -_-"

and thank God the toilet in Pavillion is clean and nice, or else I would have died of suffocation rather than being ... (I don't dare to imagine).

Love my dear dear so much for talking to me on the phone (when I was locking myself in the toilet), saying cute and funny jokes to keep me calm.

I still burst into tears.

Thanks to my Li, Ling, Lyn who lend me a shoulder to cry and a hug when I most needed one.

And also everyone who messaged me and cared.

I am ok.
But I still feel dead stupid and retarded,
For being so damn innocent.

And I did two dumb dumb mistakes in one day.
Things that I should never had done and said.

hate.
hate.
hate.


hate.











hate.








hate.









stop being STUPID.






take care everyone.
be careful at all times.
XOXO!

damn every stupid retarded psycho man to hell.
how can I not hate men when all they do is take advantages when they can.










HaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaTE!